An Apology

Seclusion from humanity seems the only justice.
Pulling me from the deviant thought of self-sacrifice.
Provoking feelings better left unseen and locked away.
Never intending to depreciate your humanity.
My soul is incongruous, mastering the art of duplicity.
Loving you never seemed so inconceivable.
So much I wanted to share, too afraid of rejection.
I'd take it back if I could, but you've heard that selection.
Realizing my mistakes, my senses crushed, I weep.
Condescending to the level of those I hate, I'll never sleep.
Changing who you are was never on my agenda.
Enduring my twisted view of love, in all it's splendor.
Turn away from the vortex of self pity, seek the truth.
Creating scenarios of your own choosing can never soothe.
Your beauty, tenacity, and creativity charms my inner ghost.
Thinking of you every day, loving you the most.I Wish now I heard your cries of protest and alienation.
To say it would have stopped me cold, is no exaggeration.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, so they say.
Better six feet above than below, jamming all the way.