The loss of you!

Some many what if's.
Seriously, too many too count.
Who, what, and why are constantly in my head.
As thoughts of you run through my mind.
Who would you have been?
What would you look like?
Why did this have to happen?
Who would you have looked like mommy or daddy?
What would your personality be like?
Why did he have to do what he did to us?
Not a man yet but a monster.
Who took you from all of us.
Blow after blow we took...!
Until your sweet little life slipped away...
My second heart beat faded into the cloudy night sky.
And the silence of the dark night.
I will NEVER understand how a father could take his own unborn son's life..!!
A sweet yet so innocent life lost..
Purposely taken apart of each of us like that..
So unbothered..
Not even devastated by the life he just took.
The pure hatred of the man that was supposed to protect us.
This thought alone is so sickening and absurd..
It seems like something from a nightmare..
I cant even fathom how the man....
I brought into your brief precious life..
Could just take yours.!
I can never say enough sorry to you my littlest angel.
I feel like my actions of choosing him..
Has caused you your precious little life.
I will forever be grieving and broken..
My heart just longing to know you.
MY sweet baby boy !
Ky'Arii Khy'Ree..
I will live with this guilt forever baby boy!!
I pray for the day we get reunited once again..