Analysis of you

Pain like I’ve never felt before
As I hold myself crying on the floor
Cried so hard I have no more tears
Now nothing can chase away my fears
The flash backs haunt me day by day
Seems like all this will never go away
Smiles come and smiles go
But most of the pain just doesn’t show
Nothing I’ve felt can ever compare to all this pain
My tears keep pouring down like rain
As worried thoughts cloud my mind
None of my memories are left behind
Never imagined it could hurt this much
Thoughts return to me with every touch
Don’t think I will ever be the same
Everyone says I’m not to blame
But my heart says otherwise
And no one can hear its cries
Even with all this emotion I have nothing to say
Though they all say it’s the price he must pay
I still feel the guilt when they say not to blame myself
I’m the one who feels the guilt not him or anyone else
Asking why I feel how I do is like asking how water tastes
I wonder if all this emotion is going to waste
Sometimes pain just overflows
It’s a feeling that it seems like nobody else knows
They try to understand how I feel
But somehow this just doesn’t seem real
I thought I could trust you I thought you cared
But after what you did to me all I am is scared