Analysis of To My Darling Girl
why can't i save you?
why do these tears fall so much
my hands shaking
as i know there's nothing i can do
and for that i'm sorry.
i failed you.
i wasn't good enough.
i didn't have the words
in a way, i've never been.
i don't speak loudly.
i'm not "out there."
other mishaps have been caused because i didn't know how to speak up.
people have been hurt.
in the end there's nothing i can do.
i'm just a stupid kid living in a stupid world.
so quick to give up.
they told me i was a good friend and a strong person
but i can't even do what matters most.
i'm a fraud and a weakling.
for all the things i should've done,
for all the things i could've said
for every way i failed in life
i'm sorry that i'm useless and can do nothing except waste oxygen
obsess over pieces of myself
and be ungrateful.
i told you i was going to save you.
well, another thing i'm good at is lying.
we had it all planned out
our lives together
you and he would marry
and i'd be there to help you if you needed me
but i can't even dream of that now.
i have no hope anymore.
so i'm sorry i wasn't strong enough to keep going for you.
i wish i could make the world stop
and get off this ride
so at least i wouldn't have to live with my failure.
i wouldn't have to live in a stupid world without you.
but we can't both leave him.
so i guess i'll stay.
even as i write this my tears fall and my nose runs and it's getting on my computer but i don't care right now.
i'm sorry you met me.
i'm sorry i promised you so much and gave you so little.
i'm sorry i'm not good enough and i will never be.
and in the end i'm sorry i wrote you this.
you're going through enough already
yet here i am complaining.
my life isn't as bad as anyone else i know's.
but i can't stand to look in the mirror and know who i am.
i didn't deserve to be called your mother because i failed you just like your real mother did.
i hate your parents and even your idol for doing this to you
but hating them won't save you.
i loved you as much as i possibly could
but loving you won't save you.
i spent time with you and disobeyed my parents
but that still won't save you.
was there something i could've done?
was there an error i made?
was there a way i could atone?
what a disgusting, hopeless, worthless breath of air i am.
there was so much i dreamed of
meeting in real life
us reading my book when it's finished
hanging out at a cafe together
you meeting my cats
going to a mall
watching you and him get married.
but there's nothing left for me to hope for anymore.
i guess this is where i leave.
don't worry, i won't die.
but i just wanted to tell you i love you and will always love you
my dearest child.
and if it's possible and i can save you
please give this worthless piece of sh*t failure a chance.
a chance to atone for everything i've done to you.
a chance to make things right.
a chance for the future you two deserve together.
i'll love you forever and always
my dearest daughter.
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Metre | 11111 1111111 1110 111110111 011110 111 110101 110101 0011101 11110 1111 1011110111011111 10111 001110111 1101011000101 11111 1111101100110 1111011101 1010010 11011101 11011001 110011101 110111001110011100 01101011 01010 1111110111 10101111110 111111 101010 101110 011111111101 111101111 111101 1110110101111011 11111011 01111 1111101111110 11011100101011 111111 11111 1011111110111011011010111111 110111 110110111011110 11011101011101 00011101111 110101010 1111010 111011110111 111111001001111 11001111110011111111101 11110010110110111 1101111 11111111001 1101111 11111001110 111111 11101001 1111011 11011101 10010101011111 1111111 10011 110111110 1011001010 11011 10101 10101110 111011111101 1111111 110111 1111011111101111 1101 01110001111 1111011111001 011011101111 011111 0110101101010 11101001 11010 |
Closest metre | Iambic pentameter |
Characters | 2,959 |
Words | 615 |
Sentences | 55 |
Stanzas | 79 |
Stanza Lengths | 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1 |
Lines Amount | 79 |
Letters per line (avg) | 28 |
Words per line (avg) | 8 |
Letters per stanza (avg) | 28 |
Words per stanza (avg) | 8 |
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Submitted on January 04, 2021
Modified on March 05, 2023
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