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nathanialmorris1
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I am a 40 year old single mother of two beautiful and amazing young adults. I haven't had the greatest experiences or history in my personal life and I can honestly say that I have finally found that one special someone that has smashed through every single wall that I had surrounding my heart. I love everything about this MAN, his flaws and asshole tendencies. I just wish he would REALLY SEE ME! I just don't know if he will ever really give US A CHANCE I know he has feelings for me too but I don't know what he actually thinks or feels for or about me. Or am I just some play thing or toy that he keeps around just biding his time until.... Am I just being used for a piece of.... these are my fears because I truly love this MAN with all of myself. With more than just all of my heart, mind, body, and soul. I am not afraid of him but God am absolutely petrified that he has the ability and power to completely annihilate my heart but I have given my faith and trust in the Lord my God which has led me give Rickey my faith, trust and unwavering LOVE almost blindly. I have been in love with this MAN for close to 26 years through both of us screwing up, getting with other people, the ups, the downward spirals, the ins, the outs, the doubts, my feelings have not changed or faltered they have just gotten stronger. So now him and I???? I don't know what if anything will happen other than the amazing chemistry we have especially sexually. But I am putting myself out there by writing these feelings down and I am not going to leave or ignore him however I am going to give him the space and time to figure things out. So this is me giving him all of myself on a platter then backing off and giving him time and space........ FROM MISSY