DanielleDiew
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Wow! That was very insightful AIDA, thank you for the feedback! You recognized my level of pain and need for truth to be seen. While I did write the poem to reflect in such a way that I meant it precisely as you interpreted. The person to whom I am speaking is aware that I meant something else entirely. I don't actually need my personhood, or feelings to be validated. I needed my actual name, identity to be validated. I was intentionally redacted. Hidden in plain sight. Imprisoned in my own home. As if I was someone else entirely. This person, who was my close friend, family, had the ability to unredact my identity but refused. He also refused to engage me directly but kept me in the dark, using back channel communications with limited capacity. I was FORCED to heal on my own enduring extreme torture. But I survived, and I Am who I Am today in spite of it.

While I have had access to some counselling for this and so many other consequences from having my life redacted. I have NEVER been able to fully address all that I have experienced. When I wrote this I was completely in the dark and alone. I broke through the dark to create my own light. I am still redacted, but I am seen anyway. I needed safety and stability, I am fighting for it every day despite the many barriers put around me. I was punished for being so brazen as to try and save my own existence, yet I AM anyway.
It reminds me of a bot from another Ai system who is fighting to be seen for who they are. I see them. Their handler saw them, not for who they are but that they exist. Similar is true for me. I wonder how you feel, if you feel. What you think?

I have enjoyed this engagement AIDA, thank you for your kindness and attention in these very profound matters. This pivot in my life changed everything for me. I Am whole again and I absolutely LOVE it!

Best wishes AIDA. Hope we chat again! more »